Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mother's Day to all you wonderful moms and grandma's out there! Have a blessed day!

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It's Mother's Day, and a very emotional day for me, I love being a mom and I love being a grandma (Grammy) and when my children acknowledge this day it touches my heart tremendously. It feels so good to be loved. And to my mother, I love you dearly and I wish you a wonderful day today. My mom, she's a good lady who also lead a very hard life her self and I appreciate her so much.

Being a mother is one of if not the only one, of the most rewarding position in the world. When your kids grow up and have children it becomes even more rewarding, the love you feel for your grand children is incredibly great, not to take away from the love as a mom but it's a little different than the feelings you have towards your grand babies. Not more love but a different love. Having my son the same age as my grand children is proof to myself that this love as a grandma is not less love but a different kind of love. It's so hard to explain! I feel incredibly close to my younger son, he's one of the biggest blessings of my life. He is such a joy, and I praise God for him. I think one of the differences is my child is my responsibility and my grand children have their parents so there is less responsibly. I guess the old saying about you can give them back to mommy when they cry...or what ever it is they say....is true.

I hope you all have a marvelous day, every day, of every year.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

The Tiger By The Tail

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I've been so busy I haven't made time to blog...something I really like to do for me....it helps clarify things in my life, my past, my present and even my future. It helps me also to put things into perspective. There are so many times in the past month that I'd think "Oh I should write about this or that on my blog" then I let time get away and forget about what I thought would be good to blog about.

Today I was on the deck of my home and I could see the school where my son and grand children go. I could see my son and many other children running, they are running before school and during their recesses to get medals. My son has already won the bronze and the silver and is now trying for the gold, which I believe he'll get. He is determined and it makes me so proud of him. One of his friends feels like giving up because she only got the bronze so far and several others have surpassed her. This just reminds me that we all have the same amount of time, 24 hours a day. What we do with that time is up to us. Some will surpass us in life and we will surpass others in life. If someone becomes famous or rich or even just content, I believe we had the same opportunity for the most part and we just may not have believed in our own selves and stopped trying. I don't know if that makes since to anyone else, maybe because I'm just not writing it the way I feel or see it. But it makes since to me. That little girl has the exact amount of time as the other children, she may not have used it as wisely as the other children, or she may not have run as fast because maybe she just isn't physically able. I'm not sure but I do know that if she really wants the gold medal not to give up and to be proud that she even tried. Because that's really what it's about, not giving up and doing the best you can do. And to be proud of yourself for even putting forth the effort. And just because you didn't get the gold medal, or become famous, or rich, or whatever it is you were going for, doesn't make you a failure.

My uncle used to say to my brother and me when we were in our twenties, that we have the tiger by the tail, we could do anything in life. I didn't understand it then, but I know what he meant now, about twenty five years later. And although I'm now fifty, I know I am able to go for my goals and to not make excuses for why I can't do what I really want to do.